Dear Joshua and Adelaide

Amanda was my best friend in elementary school. I have the best memories of lip syncing to Britney Spears, Christina Aguilera, and many other 90s bands in her basement. We attended a kids camp one summer together. Her mom would drive us there in the morning and my mom would pick us up. We had a great childhood. Then we both moved away to different areas. 

I remember when Amanda lost her twins back in 2013. I was so devastated for her and I thought to myself "wow, I could never be that strong." What a strong spirit she must have been to have not only one but TWO angel babies waiting for her in heaven. Fast forward to three years later when I lost my Sadie. Amanda didn't hesitate to reach out to me and be such a strong inspiration to me. She has given me so much hope and so much help as I grieve for the loss of my Sweet Sadie A. Amanda thank you for submitting a letter and being such an inspiration to me and the rest of our readers! Happy Birthday sweet Joshua and Adelaide! I know Sadie is enjoying your birthday with you in Heaven.

My Dearest Niece Sadie

This is the very first letter that my sister Kendra wrote to Sadie. As you can tell she is better at her words than I ever will be. She was there that night when we had to say goodbye to Sadie and I am so glad that she was there to be with me. We as sisters have such a strong bond. Even when we have those times where we disagree and call each others names, we know we still love each other. My sister's faith is contagious. I still have my days when I think "why did I have to be the unlucky one?" but then I read about her faith and it helps me through. I hope her strength can help others as well.

Dear Spencer

Monica is a great friend, coworker, and mentor to me. She is so passionate about her job and her family and I admire her deeply. When we lost Sadie she spoke with me about the loss of her two angel babies Spencer and Matthew. Spencer returned to Heaven at 32 weeks, and Matthew at 18 weeks. This sweet letter is to Spencer. What an amazing strength Monica has to know that even though she doesn't get to raise Spencer and Matthew right now, she will one day get that opportunity. Thank you so much Monica for sharing your sweet faith and your angel babies with us!

Woman of Faith

Letters for Sadie is letters to my little girl that I had to say goodbye to way to soon. The letters are my thoughts and feelings about things I have felt and experienced during this time. The blog is open to anybody that wants to send a letter or thoughts to an angel baby or loved one. Please feel free to contribute in anyway possible.

I hope these letters will be well received by you, our readers. If anyone has questions or would like to submit a letter to their angel baby, please email ltrstosadie@gmail.com

Letters for Sadie

First of all I would like to start with a disclaimer: I am not a blogger. I think I have attempted in my life to create about 5 different blogs and each one has about 2 posts and then was never touched ever again. I personally do not find entertainment in writing nor am I any good at it. I took a creative writing class in the 8th grade and I think it took about everything I had in me to not fail that class entirely. I am sorry to say that I just don't have that writing gene anywhere in my body.

My sister Kendra however, is a beautiful writer/blogger. She can put whatever she can think into beautiful words. I enjoy reading the many things she writes and I envy her for her talent. When we had to saw goodbye to our little Sadie, my sister wrote a beautiful letter to Sadie that really touched my heart. The day of the funeral, my sister gave me info for this blog that she had created for me to write letters to my sweet little Sadie A.

At first, I didn't know what to do with it. I thought, "who on earth would want to listen to me vent to my little girl"? Why would anyone care about what I was feeling or what I was thinking about this trial that my family and I are going through. I can't write, my words are not touching, and I don't have anything to say. So this blog has been sitting here with nothing done to it.

However, as time went on, I started a small journal and I wrote in the journal as if I was talking to Sadie and it has been very healing. Slowly a feeling as come over me that I need to share my feelings. I know that there may be one person out there that I can help. I have that desire to help others because I have a love for people and if I could help them in anyway, I want to. So this is how Letters For Sadie starts anew; I want to hear from others. Being the parent of an angel baby, I have learned that I am not alone in this struggle. At first I felt alone because no one really talks about our situation and I want that to change. There are many of us that have angel babies and I know we can all help each other just by sharing our thoughts.

Letters for Sadie is where you can write letters to your angel baby. You can share your dreams you had for them. You can write how much you miss them. You can even just write how your day went. Write whatever you feel in your heart that you want to say to your angel. So here is what you can do...

1. Write a letter and submit it to ltrstosadie@gmail.com
2. Submit some background info. We would to hear who you are and about that sweet angel.
3. We will send a return email to notify you of the day your letter will be on the blog.
4. Share your letter. I know and I truly believe your letter will touch someone out there and will help them as well as help yourself
5. Continue writing to us. We will post as many letters as you would like to share with the world.

Also, you don't have to be a parent of an angel baby. You can be the grandmother, the aunt, the sibling, the best friend of the mother/father, etc. Any connection you have, you are than welcome to write a letter to that sweet angel.

The purpose of this blog is to feel loved, to feel that you are not alone, and to feel that there are people out there who can learn from you as well as you learning for them. I am dedicating my blog to my sweet angel Sadie and my desire to learn and help others in a similar situation. Whether you lost your baby at 8 weeks in pregnancy, or at the age of 8 please share. Whether you lost an angel baby 50 years ago, or 50 minutes ago, please share and please enjoy this blog. I know through the power of writing, we can truly heal and help others heal.

I can't wait to learn from others and to hear your sweet letters. I know this blog can be amazing for many!

Sincerely,
Samantha Wood
(Sadie's mom)

Black!

Black. What people refer to as darkness, but we referred to as the end
of the day and just a brief moment before a beautiful new day started.
Black. What is known in the world as the absorption of all colors.
Black. What is now in my memory as your black silent ultrasound on that
black night.

How we wanted you so bad. How your father wanted you so bad. I remember
when we were first married and babysitting your sweet cousin,
David would talk about hearing his own little girl call him "Daddy".
That was the first thing I thought when the doctor told us that you
were our little girl. I couldn't wait for them to hand you over to
David and see him light up. I was so filled with anticipation for that
day.

We felt the world was ours. We had prepared and prepared for you. We
anticipated what life would be. Our home was full of hopes and dreams
for you. We fought for you. How excited we were for you to join our family on this earth.

But then the black came. The black ultrasound that made our world come
to a screeching halt. What felt like falling and falling and falling,
then hitting a cold hard surface only to look up and see ourselves
surrounded by large cliffs, with now way out. Black all of a sudden
became my least favorite thing in the ENTIRE world. But then again I
didn't have a world at that moment.

Time since then has been such a blur. The transition has and won't be
an easy one. But slowly new hopes and dreams have emerged. Ones, we
never thought we would need. Ones that I never knew existed. However,
they keep us going. They keep us on a path that we must constantly
fight to stay on. A path that we desperately hang onto. For we know
that this paths will lead us straight to you again. This path will
leads us to where you are anxiously waiting for us to be. How we can't
wait until we reach that paths end.

Until then these letters will be our communication. Our way of
healing. Our way of peace. Our way of comfort. I also hope these
letters can help others. I know they are mainly selfish, but if maybe
one day these find someone who needs help with their trials in life, I
pray it will give them the hope they need to keep going. I hope they
keep me going as well.

How we miss you Sadie. How our hearts ache for you to be here with us
right now. How sad days have become at times. But how grateful to know
you are our little girl forever and always and that one day we will be
holding you again. Until that time comes, please know that we love you
our sweet little Sadie A!

Love always,
Mom and Dad